The Drop
Well most of you know whats been going on with me…some of you may not. Well for those who dont and to update everyone….i have a unknown cancer that i get to name. This cancer dwells in the thigh of my right leg. However, the muscle it lives in along with the tumor, will be taken out monday afternoon. From there i have a two weeks recovery period…and its possible that i may being going through chemo as well. but dont feel sorry for me. just make sure i dont fall or lose sight of the hope i have.
Tonight, i found my meaning and purpose in life. And its exciting. unfortunately i found it from a traumatic circumstance, but none the less i found it. For the past few weeks i have been so overwhelmed with doctors, scans, unknown results, and a biopsy; that i havent really had a time to think about it all and what all this means. So i took a drive. i rolled down my window, drove and just embraced the wind that blew across my arm and face. i took it all in. i listened to my heart beat and watched the sun set as i drove towards it. it was then that i realized i cant give in…without a fight. My entire life i wanted to be the first. the first at something. whether it was sports, school, or even work. i wanted to be famous just to be known…but never knew what to be known for. Well, thats all changed. i dont want to be famous just to be famous. I want to be known that i survived a cancer no one has ever had or seen. And by surviving this and going through it, i will save someone else’s life later in the future when they get what i have. ill be that leader, role model, and example that they can follow. So because im going through this, they can do all the research and tests they want to make sure someone else’s life could be saved. If worse comes to worse and it ends up taking my life…im not worried or scared, because i wanted to save the world, and whether its one life or a million. at least i saved someone. and im effin excited about that. so im gonna show them how this is done. How to fight, how to never give up, how to stay positive, how to come out on top. and that its ok to be scared, sad, angry, confused, helpless, and sometimes vulnerable to a point of fighting no more….but through all that….think of those you have made laugh. i love that more than anything in this world. laughter. and if i can someone life…then this life is worth fighting for. Fight for what u love most in this crazy world. Cuz i guarantee if u have anything like this, doing something like making someone laugh is what will get you through it.
So guess what cancer….you’re going down.
im the a drop of rain thats being accumulated in those clouds above you. One day i will be released into your waters. and…..”I’ll be the drop that causes that ripple.”
~Josh
AKA:
“Survivor of Seizon Cancer”
Seizon=Survival in Japanese. This is what ill be calling my cancer.
